where do we go from here?*

Yesterday was my day off from work and I spent it on the couch, feeling down and crappy. I finished watching Party Down (which was great, btw). This is fairly sad considering to finish watching the series, I watched about one and half seasons yesterday.

Anyway, I found myself relating way too much with most of the characters. Though they are struggling actors and I'm a struggling graphic designer, the sentiment is pretty much the same. When the fuck is someone going to say yes instead of no? Am I actually good enough to do this? Should I keep blindly or stubbornly trying to "make it?" I guess it kind of brought to a head all the frustration and anger and sadness I've been feeling (or, more accurately, trying to ignore) lately about my "career."

Well, I don't want to drop any spoilers here, but I will say that the series finale had kind of an open-ended finish that I'm choosing to view in a positive way. So, this morning I went to work when it was still dark out with a slightly better-than-usual attitude. And when I got home, I decided to go for a run (instead of putting it off as I have been lately).

I had probably my best run since I've recovered (more or less) from my foot injury (stress fracture? who knows). I didn't stop or slow down at all and I pushed myself to speed up at the end even though I didn't have much left. The weather was amazing (is it really almost February?) and I was feeling pretty great when I walked home to cool down. To top it all off, I was greeted by an email when I got home proclaiming that I had set a personal milestone for distance. (To be fair, this is only because I just started using a running app for my iPhone, so it was my first recorded run. I literally could have run .25 miles and it would have sent me the same email. Whatever, it was inspirational.)

I'm not really sure what this semi-rambling post is aiming at. Do I think that I've turned a corner and am all of a sudden going to get a super fulfilling job? Mmm, that'd be awesome, but no, not really. I guess I just feel like trying harder than I have in a while and, just maybe, attempting to not get so discouraged by every setback.


*Yeah, this post title is a song from the Buffy musical, so what?

25 things to do during 25

So, I made a list of 25 things I want to do while I'm 25. I might be having a quarter-life crisis. Whatever. Don't judge me.

Without further ado, the 25 things (in no particular order) I want to do while I'm 25...

1) get a tattoo
2) run a half-marathon
3) create design portfolio website
4) take more photos
5) create an art collection/show
6) learn at least 5 songs on the guitar
7) put away clean laundry right away
8) restore something old/antique
9) go to the doctor and get a physical
10) go to the dentist
11) work out at least 4x/week
12) communicate much more regularly with people who are important to me
13) have short quiet reflection every day
14) write a novel (or at least a novella)
15) read/watch the news every day
16) try to always maintain my patience in difficult situations
17) be ok with not being perfect
18) take criticism better
19) sketch more often
20) explore more of DC/surrounding area
21) spend more time outside
22) strive to have good conversations and get to know people
23) dance more
24) brush dr. pajama cat more often
25) make it to 26